A slippery slope

    


     I've lost it...and this time I mean the POUNDS!  I lost the 3 pounds I "found" during last week's Weight Watchers weigh-in...those 3 annoying pounds which caused me to cry for several hours, actually DAYS.  Where the hell did they come from anyway?  After talking to a good friend today about our struggle with losing weight, I reevaluated what I did last week.  I ate right (whole grains, lots of veggies, fruit, lean, lowfat protein, water, yada, yada, yada) and exercised 5 days a week as usual.  But then, I rewarded myself.  I had the Margarita.  And the Chips and Guacamole.  I know the rules.  I followed them.  But then I treated myself.  I can't do that.  Not even 48 months after I started "dieting" because I haven't reached my goal.  It's a VERY slippery slope and I have to remember that EVERY SINGLE DAY.  That can seem distressing and daunting and unfair at times but then I have to remember there is a GOAL ahead, something I want to achieve.  I have to imagine how it will feel to weigh in and officially consider myself "healthy" - having a normal Body Mass Index, or how it will feel to be in the next size jeans or look in the mirror during aerobics class and not cringe.

     I actually sat through the entire Weight Watchers meeting today (I usually duck out early because I have my two year old).  My leader suggested that when I have a sudden weight gain, just walk away from the scale, be confident in what I did that week and where you're headed the next week and it WILL come off.  JUST KEEP AT IT.  Even though I'd been feeling strong bouts of fatigue, I ran on the treadmill 2 1/2 miles yesterday.  I also recommitted to writing down my Points.  After years of doing Weight Watchers I get a little cocky sometimes.  I feel a sense of entitlement.  Like writing down your points is for the "freshmen" and I'm a "senior" - I've been here forever.  I have to get back to the basics of accounting for every little bite and rewarding myself in other ways. Let's see where that leads me this week.

How do you reward yourself or get through the "tough" times when all you want is your chips? or chocolate? Or wine?