Where is the Love?

  
     I need to find the love I once had for working out.  After a temporary set back and 5 lb. weight gain I'm once again searching for the love.  I'm trying to muster up those old feelings that got me into the gym on a daily basis, that made me sweat and generate massive amounts of endorphins, sending me on my way in a very good mood.  Now I dread putting on my sports bra, heading out the door and even once I'm in the gym I feel lost.

     It's sort of like being in a bar after breaking up with a boyfriend.  It feels foreign to me, walking around in a bit of a daze.  I want to get back to where I once was but I'm just a little awkward.  I'm searching for my place amongst the popular weight lifters and skinny girls.  My confidence is askew.  After being accustomed to the same routine and familiar faces, then taking an extended break, it all seems overwhelming and dreadful.  I've been taking it slow the last couple days, scoping things out and easing into the process.  I greeted the bike this week with open arms, because it's comfortable and easy and I can control it.  So I did 45 minutes Saturday and 30 minutes Sunday.  I will get to that point where I will hit the treadmill head on, followed by weights and squats.  Hell, I might even call my trainer back soon to schedule my long overdue session.  But for now, I'm going to feel things out a bit, get my mind in the game and I WILL find the passion that was once there!

     Any suggestions for finding the love?