Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Dark Side

    
I took a trip to the DARK SIDE last night and it was INCREDIBLE.  I wasn't sure if I'd even come back.  After a few days of healthy eating, I lost it.   I drank and ate whatever the hell I wanted;  Purple Cowboy Wine, Dreyer's Maxx ice cream (Nestle Drumstick Flavor), Makers Mark whiskey and Macaroni and Cheese.  And not the healthy kind of mac and cheese...the nasty fake (but very, very yummy) Velveeta cheese that somehow isn't even sold in the refrigerated section of the grocery store.

The morning wasn't even so bad but once the sun went down, all hell broke loose.  Actually, it was while I was grilling my healthy Weight Watchers halibut recipe.  I just waited too long to eat dinner and it was too late.  I was ravenous.  Here's what I did until I turned to the other side...


Breakfast:  1 egg (75) and 1 slice of Trader Joe's French Villaage 100% Stone Ground Whole Grain Bread made with Soy and Flax Seed (100)

Snack: Chinese Tea

Lunch: The Chop Chop Chef Salad (with Tempeh, Veggie Steak, Veggie Chikn, green onions and roasted corn salsa with Chipotle dressing (250) and sweet potato fries (90) from my favorite place, the Veggie Grill


Snack:  Carrots and Roasted Red Pepper Hommus (80)

Dinner:  Halibut Kebobs with Spicy Pepper Sauce (150), a Weight Watchers recipe.  While it was cooking I had a cocktail of diet coke and Maker's Mark (69).  Next up was the left over mac and cheese (335) that I made the kids.  The wine was next.  By the way Purple Cowboy wine (200) is AWESOME (so awesome I had 2 glasses).  I still had the halibut kebobs which were really delicious but not exactly satisfying on a Friday night.  I didn't bother to make it with the brown rice as instructed because I already had my carbs in my mac and cheese.  After the kids went to bed, I opened the freezer to find a half eaten container of Dreyer's Maxx ice cream (320)  It must have been in there for awhile because it was freezer burnt and they actually don't even make it any more.  But I had NO PROBLEM finishing it.  If my math is correct, my visit to the Dark Side cost me about 1,669, which isn't a TERRIBLE amount of calories but it's the amount of carbs and sugar and fat that I'm not too proud of.  I needed to be BAD, I needed to taste the sugar, the fat and all of the things I've been fighting against.  I just can't let those things grab ahold of me, I have to stand my ground and be strong. Wish me LUCK! What's YOUR vice?



Friday, February 26, 2010

Jumping for Joy

 
     Yesterday I "worked out" with my kids and we had tons of FUN - I taught them how to jump rope.  It had been a long time and I had them all fired up, counting how many times I could jump.  It's sad to say, that I couldn't get more than 14 jumps in before I got tangled up in the rope.  Then we played "snake", where you try to jump over the rope while two people are shaking it back and forth on the ground - even my two year old got involved.  Next, I pulled out an old game from my days in the 70's - "School".  The rope holders start with it on the ground and say "kindergarten" while the jumper jumps.  The rope gets elevated each time the jumper successfully makes it over, and the holders move on to "first grade", "2nd grade", "3rd grade"...you get it.  I think I only made it to 4th grade because the kids were a bit overzealous in raising up the rope.  We even tried double-dutch but that was far too complicated.

     Anyway, we had a lot of fun and I think I burned at least 300 calories.  Supposedly ever 10 minutes you burn about 120.  It was a good alternative to the gym and everyone in the family could join in.  We were able to consolidate tasks of getting ourselves outside, exercising and laughing and spending time together.

Yesterday's news and things I love to eat

Here's my menu for yesterday (calories are to the right)

Breakfast: 
Roasted Vegetable SoupCoffee with soy milk (1/2)  14
2 eggs  150
Chinese Tea

Snack:
Chinese Tea

Lunch:
small product photoKettle Cuisine Roasted Vegetable Soup (Gluten Free and Dairy Free) 140
Avocado-Cucumber Toss (a Weight Watchers Recipe 3 points) with cherry tomatoes, avocado and cucumbers  140
A few Trader Joe's Reduced Guilt White Corn Tortilla Chips 60

Snack:
Lowfat cheese stick  60
5 raw carrots and Cedar's Roasted Red Pepper Hommus  80

Dinner:
Trader Joe's Organic Whole Wheat Penne Pasta 250
Spinach, Roasted Red Pepper, Mushrooms, Onions, Olives 50
Rao's Homemade Puttanesca Sauce 1/4 cup 40
Feta Cheese 70

Dessert: 
Michelle's naturally- Vegan Peanut Butter Apricot cookies.  They are all Natural, no trans fat, organic and sweetened with fruit juice.  130
Chinese Tea
Red Wine - 100

Total: 1,284 Calories





On the Band wagon




    This morning I warmed up on the treadmill, running 1 mile in a whopping 17 minutes and 11 seconds.  That's pretty embarrassing but I'm telling you, I hate to run and I'm not very good at it.  I followed up my run with several strength exercises utilizing the Thera-Band- a system of progressive exercise.  It's another alternative to the same old moves but incorporates a unique level of resistance to improve conditioning and build strength.  The set of bands come in five different colors which represent various levels of resistance and they are available in latex and latex-free.  I started with the red which is medium resistance and performed the following moves:

Shoulder Shrugs
Bicep curls
Bent Rows
Hip Adduction
Hip Abduction
Leg Press

     I felt the effects of the bands right away and can already tell that it is challenging me, especially the hip abduction.  I was able to hit my rough spots in a new way.  They are easy to throw into your gym bag, use at home or on the road.  Having the bands, there really is no excuse not to get some strength training in when you're traveling.  The product is great, but the marketing sucks.  I had to giggle at this photo.  It just seems so silly...






Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hat Trick

   Hats off to the USA Hockey Team who beat the Canadians 5-3 on Sunday night.  What a show...the team accomplished what they never thought they could.  I am proud to say that I had a hat trick this week.  Three days in a row I met my goal but it felt like an Olympic sport, the time and energy that was consumed was extreme.  I diligently recorded every single thing I ate; the calories, fat, carbs, fiber and protein.  I worked out all three days and wrote down every move.  I was still far from perfect but I'm proud to have taken this step after the weekend of debauchery.

Here's how it looked-the number to the right is the calories-and is an approximation given research I've done from packaging and online.  I felt like it was a good idea to look at these numbers rather than Weight Watchers Points this week.  I wanted a new perspective on things and how many calories I am really ingesting.

MONDAY:


Breakfast:
Soy Latte 1/2 grande  162

Snack:
Protein Pack from Starbucks (hard boiled eggs, apple slices, grapes, 1 oz. cheese, small whole wheat bagel)   290
Chinese Tea

Lunch:
Fresh Brothers Spinach and Mushroom pizza (2 small slices)  270
1/2 cup greek salad  105

Snack:
edamame 1/2 cup  120

Dinner:
Weight Watchers Portobello Mushroom Burger with basil mayo  288
Trader Joe's Organic Reduced Guilt White Corn Tortilla Chips   120
Red wine  100

TOTAL CALORIES:  1452

Workout:

Bike 30 minutes-5.5 miles
Jumping  3X12
Bicep curls  3x12 10 lbs.
Leg Extensions 20 lbs. 3x12
Leg Adduction 70 lbs. 3x15
Leg Abduction 50 lbs. 3x20
Run 10 minutes -.68 miles


TUESDAY

Breakfast:
Chinese Tea  
2 eggs   150
Coffee with soy milk   14

Snack:
Bite of birthday cake   100

Lunch:
Ate at the Spot, a vegetarian restaurant in Hermosa Beach, California.
Vegetable soup with black eyed peas   80
Dear George - a dish with tofu and mixed vegetables in a "savory" sauce 128
Water

Snack:
Edamame 1/2 cup  shelled  120
Yogurt covered pretzels  150

Dinner:
Weight Watchers Tortilla Pinwheels without the meat.  Includes olives, light cream cheese, cherry tomatoes, spinach   247
Trader Joe's Organic Reduced Guilt White Corn Tortilla Chips   140
Wine  100

TOTAL CALORIES: 1269

Physical Activity:

Biked 2.5 miles  58 calories
Side step ups  3x12  92
Tripod dips 3x12  46
Bicep curls  3x12   41
Booty lift/crunch  3x12
plank/jacknife  3x12
leg lifts with ball 3x12

WEDNESDAY:

Breakfast:
Water and Apple Cider Vinegar  0

Snack:
Balance Bar  210
1/2 coffee with soy milk  15

Lunch:
Half Miso Salad from California Pizza Kitchen  580
Bites of my kids mac and cheese  150
Bite of my kids cheeseburger pizza  80
Water

Snack:
Cheese stick  60

Dinner:
Edamame  90
Dynamite:  187
Miso Soup  84
Hand Roll  117
Sushi Roll -various fish and some tempura  508
Beer 145
2 glasses red wine  170

TOTAL CALORIES:  2396

Workout: 
With Trainer
Dead Bug leg lifts
Planks
Full situps 2x20
Ball Stretch
Ball Situps
Side Bridge
Bridges
Leg Lifts on side
(2 sets of each)

   This has been a great test to see the differences between cooking and planning at home and eating in and going out.  What I thought was seemingly innocent (a night out for sushi) actually sabotaged my day.  Knowledge is power and I will move through the week with a bit more understanding of my diet and the consequences of stepping away from the rules of the game.


Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Calorie Counter/Dietminder

DietMinder Personal Food & Fitness Journal (A Food and Exercise Diary)


     I found a great resource to figure out how many calories you need a day in order to maintain or to lose weight.  Check out the American Cancer Society's link below.  It takes into consideration you weight and activity level and also has tools to figure out calories burned during various exercises.  I hope you find it useful.


Also, the Dietminder Personal Food & Fitness Journal is a fantastic solution for journaling food and writing down your workouts.  I have tried so many different types of journals and found that this one is the most inclusive and is laid out well.  It has space to track meals and snacks, a place for calorie, fat, carbs, fiber and protein as well as supplements and physical acitivity.  It even has space to do the "math".  I found mine at Barnes & Noble but you can also order it here.





Sipping Cider Through a Straw

  
The Fat Flush Foods : The World's Best Foods, Seasonings, and Supplements to Flush the Fat From Every BodyFolk Medicine     Apparently apple cider vinegar a day keeps the fat away, one of many uses besides dying Easter Eggs and cleaning coffee makers.  According to the book The Fat Flush Foods by Ann Louise Gittleman, apple cider "flushes the fat from every body".  Apple Cider Vinegar became popular in the late 1950's when Dr. D.C. Jarvis talked about it in his best-selling book Folk Medicine: A Vermont Doctor's Guide To Good Health.  It contains acetic acid which stimulates the metabolism and several qualities that create an ideal chemical balance for fat burning.  To reap these benefits the apple cider vinegar should be organic and unpasteurized, with no chemicals or preservatives added.  The vinegar should be a light brown color and have cobweb-like floating substances in it, which is referred to as "the mother".  It doesn't sound too appetizing, I know.  But used as a salad dressing or a teaspoon or two of it added to a glass of water doesn't taste bad at all.  I had a glass today for breakfast and I was full all morning.  After seeing the list of benefits, I found several Weight Watchers recipes that contain apple cider vinegar. They are listed below and hopefully, those of you who do not have Weight Watchers e-tools can see the links.  If not, I can pass on the recipes.  Gittleman's book suggests using it for a pH balancing bath or using it as a hair rinse.  Who knew?

Benefits:
Acetic Acid-stimulates metabolism, lowers blood sugar by as much as 30%, keeps appetite in check-slows stomach emptying
Potassium - Releases toxic waste
Beta-carotene - Gets rid of free radicals that damage fat
Pectin - Scrapes the cholesterol off blood vessel walls
Enzymes/Amino Acids - Develops healthy proteins in the body, reduces cholesterol, slows the aging process, cleanses and tones the digestive tract, increases circulation, soothes achy joints/sore muscles, gives skin a healthy sheen

Recipes:

Portobello Burger with Basil Mayo (4 Points)
Tortilla Pinwheels (2)
Cobb Salad with Flaxseed Oil Dressing (6)
Avocado-Cucumber Toss (3)
American Potato Salad (2)
Sesame Ginger Cabbage Salad (1)
Halibut Kebabs with Spicy Pepper Sauce (6)

Monday, February 22, 2010

Palm DESSERT



     There's nothing like slipping into your bathing suit and sitting poolside in February to get you motivated or in my case, disgusted.  I thought I felt pretty good about myself, but after I slipped off my shorts and tank top at the edge of the pool, I quickly realized that the cellulite and love handles were in full effect.  My family and I vacationed at the JW Marriott in Palm Desert this past weekend and it was an amazing time filled with family and friends and plenty of eating and drinking.  Things started off fairly innocent as we hit the brunch buffet at the LakeView Restaurant.  I started with the egg white veggie omelet but somehow ended up with mini waffles covered in caramel sauce and chocolate chips.  I literally cannot stop thinking about them even today.  Decadent.   Our crew had plenty of toasts to make at the bar - a surprise visit from my cousin, an engagement and a few birthdays to celebrate.  That kept us all drinking and laughing and then late night eating - chinese food.  I tried to stick with the vegetable dishes but a spring roll or two ended up on my plate.  Throw in a pina colada and some cheese and crackers and we had ourselves a party.  The final night we had my brother's engagement celebration at a fabulous Mexican restaurant, Las Casuelas Nuevas where we indulged in strong margaritas, chips and salsa, delicious cheese enchiladas and rice and beans.  Of course, no engagement party is complete without a fluffy white cake, cream filling, complete with buttercream frosting.  We ordered from The Pastry Swan and they did not let us down.

     To say I was on a "diet vacation" the last few days would be an understatement.  However, what happens in Palm Desert will stay there. I'm back in full effect today -  I hit the gym, made a Trader Joe's run and a new notebook to write down everything I eat.  No more dessert for me...I'm bikini bound now!




Wednesday, February 17, 2010

40 Days


  
     It's "Ash Wednesday", the beginning of Lent for us Catholics.  It's a time when we are supposed to reflect and incorporate prayer, fasting and almsgiving into our lives.  These practices help Christians to take the focus off of ourselves and direct it toward God and others.  It's a time for regaining good habits.  Recently I have been asked to be my sister in law's "sponsor" as she becomes a member of the Catholic Church and I have been re-learning all of the things I was told as a child.


     Catholics are supposed to practice "Fast and Abstinence" which means eating one full meal plus two partial meals, together not equaling one full meal, and not eating between meals for all ages 18-60 in good health. Abstinence means abstaining from all meat for all ages 14 and over. All Fridays during Lent are days of abstinence.  Ash Wednesday and Good Friday are days of fast and abstinence.


Us Weekly (1-year)     I have decided to give up eating meat during the  entire 40 days of Lent, not just on Fridays.  I'm planning to find great vegetarian meals to make the family so I can offer them creative, healthy choices and I look forward to any suggestions you might have.  I'm also planning to get myself and my family moving for at least 30 minutes a day and this can come in all types of forms.  We're going to have fun with it!  I just want to know we have each moved so our hearts and lungs and stronger and healthier and that we appreciate the bodies that God has given us. Lastly, and unrelated to physical health but probably my mental health, I've decided to stay away from gossip magazines.  US Magazine happens to be one of my guilty pleasures.  Instead, I'm going to finish reading the books on my nightstand.  I still have to finish "The Blind Side" by Michael Lewis and "East of Eden" by John Steinbeck.  When I'm caught up, the next selection is "Wench" by Dolen Perkins-Valdez.  Feel free to recommend any books you like too!


What are you giving up?







Monday, February 15, 2010

Let's Move with the First Lady

  
     Michelle Obama worries about obesity too  - childhood obesity.  Even though she thought that she was doing all the right things, her pediatrician indicated that her daughter's BMIs were getting off course.  In the past 30 years, obesity rates have actually TRIPLED and now two thirds of American adults and a third of American children are overweight or obese.  Our country spends $150 billion every year treating obesity-related diseases, many of which can be prevented.  Sadly, it's even affecting the strength of our soldiers as military leaders indicate that obesity is one of the most common disqualifiers for military service.

     To address these issues early on, Michelle Obama recently launched her Let's Move campaign to combat childhood obesity.  It is a comprehensive approach to educating parents, caregivers, schools and children about the importance of eating healthy and will provide them with the tools they need and the nation's children's health foundations have come together and  formed The Partnership of a Healthier America.  Through the campaign, the hope is to do the following:

-  Provide information to the consumer to make educated choices with the help of the food and beverage industries.  Including Estimated Calorie Requirements for the whole family.   I am thrilled with this, since my own general practitioner could not tell me how many calories I am supposed to eat each day.

-  Investing $400 million a year to reduce "food deserts" where people don't have access to nutritious foods by providing grocery stores and help convenience stores to carry healthier options.

-  Provide monies to schools (requesting $10 billion over ten years starting in 2011)  through the Child Nutrition Act to improve the quality of school breakfast and lunches.

-  The American Academy of Pediatrics and other health organizations will educate doctors and nurses about Body Mass Index, BMI.  They will monitor it and provide counseling for families early on, even providing prescriptions to remedy weight gain.

-  The food pyramid will be revamped by the US Department of Agriculture and updated information and various tools will be available on MyPyramid.gov.

-  The USDA will create a Food Atlas, an interactive database that will provide information regarding healthy food environments-identifying 'food deserts', high incidence of diabetes and other conditions.

-  Let's Move toolkits will be available soon to parents to get them going.  They will be made available on the "Let's Move" website.

-  Increasing physical activity with the help of the President's Fitness Challenge, the U.S. Department of Education and clinics held by professional athletes.

Mrs. Obama believes that unlike diseases for which we are searching for a cure, we have the CURE for childhood obesity.  Every day I worry about my kids, what they are eating and how what I serve affects them.  This is true from my house to the White House.  The Let's Move campaign has some valuable resources and as I incorporate some of the ideas into our lives I hope to keep moving myself.  What are your thoughts on this campaign?

Sunday, February 14, 2010

I heart my husband

  


     After years of dating the good, the bad and the ugly, and searching for that special someone, I can say God has blessed me with the most amazing man.  "Skinny Hubby" planned a night out last night to celebrate Valentine's Day a little early.  He booked the sitter and told me to be ready by 5 and dressed for...the gym.  At first, I was a little bitter.  I have officially fallen off the wagon, my motivation is down and working out was the LAST thing that I wanted to do on a Saturday night of Valentine's Day weekend.  My husband insisted, we got in there and worked it out together.  We ran, we did push-ups, planks, squats, sit-ups and stretched on one of those awesome foam rollers.  It felt GOOD.  At the end of the hour I was glad that we had taken the time to get in there together and focus on feeling better.  That's not to say we didn't indulge.  We followed the workout with a few cocktails and some awesome Mexican fare, but the fact that my husband truly thought about my HEART that night was endearing.  He cares about me and my well-being and that date night said a lot.  We've both decided that it's time to re-evaluate where our time is spent and make our health a priority again.  It's something we can give to ourselves, each other and our kids.

     Happy Valentine's Day!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Down to Urth


  

     Yesterday I had lunch at the Urth Caffe - one of my favorite LA spots, America's first exclusively organic coffee company which is also frequented by the hip Hollywood characters on HBO's "Entourage".  Vincent Chase and his boys have had many pitch meetings at this hippy/trendy Beverly Hills spot and those guys are no dummies when it comes to fresh, organic, delicious salads and sandwiches.  I ordered a half of an URTH SALAD - organic mixed greens, feta cheese, roma tomatoes, hearts of palm, garbanzo beans, Kalamata olives and pine nuts with the "Urth vinaigrette" and it was FABULOUS.   Why can't my salads look that enticing and taste so amazing?  My son had a grilled chicken quesadilla which he refused to share with his mom and a pecan chocolate chip cookie (did I mention the delectable baked goods that tease you at the counter when you order-particularly the small exquisite Oreo cheesecake).  Urth also has unique entrees, paninis, soups and salads, made with all-natural ingredients and plenty of vegan options.  It's not difficult to stay on a no or lo-carb diet at the Urth Cafe with so many fantastic, clean choices.  If you are in the area, I HIGHLY recommend you stop in for a power lunch...you might even get a glimpse of the stars!




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Monday, February 8, 2010

A little Groggy

    

     Beware the Navy Grog.  This week I did a pretty good job of recording every thing I ate- I was loyal to my Weight Watchers program, I journaled my food and stayed very close to my required points range.  That is, until Saturday.  I stopped counting when I attended a kids birthday party complete with the most delicious pulled pork and macaroni and cheese then headed to a party afterward with pesto pasta and plenty of cocktails.  I didn't eat too much but I did drink too many calories.  I stuck with the safe bet- vodka and soda with a lime -- low in calories and the smallest chance of giving me a hangover.  At the end of the night I sent my loving husband to the bar and told him to "surprise me".  He did, bringing me a NAVY GROG which is the fruitiest rum induced cocktail -- the alcohol content is probably about the same as a Long Island Iced Tea.  It's a specialty drink at Rock 'n' Fish in Manhattan Beach, CA. That was NOT a good idea, but of course it tasted delicious so I had another.  My appetite was completely suppressed on Sunday because I was so nauseous I couldn't eat a thing.  This cocktail looks so pretty and enticing and even fairly innocent but let me tell you first hand, it will KICK YOUR BUTT.

Still feeling groggy today I weighed in and lost 4.4 lbs this week!  Needless to say, I have to GET MYSELF TOGETHER THIS WEEK...and no more "surprises" from my husband!

Fridays menu

2 egg omelet with spinach, 1 tbs guacamole (5)
coffee with tbs soy creamer (1)

Snack:
15 oz water
1 banana (2)
small bite of my son's pizza (to make sure it wasn't too hot) (.5)
2 grapes (.25)

Lunch:
Small bit of leftover Rigatoni Puttanesca with Veggie Meatballs (4)
Spinach with Galeo's Miso Caesar Dressing- An AMAZING LOW-FAT dressing...makes everything taste better and it's ZERO points (0)
black coffee
16 oz water

Snack:
2 Frenchcookies Baking Atelier No Trans Fat, Gluten Free Butter Cookies (Orange and Almond) (2)
5 carrots and guacamole (1)

Dinner:
Organic Spinach and Cheese Whole Wheat Ravioli with Soy Ricotta (5)
Wine (4)

Total:  25

Friday, February 5, 2010

Sore Loser

  

     Remind me not to take off from the gym for over one week at a time again.  I am hurting.  Bad.  Even though I've been EASING into things I am sore from head to toe, I can't fall asleep because the pain is all over and so bad that I can't seem to get comfortable.  Even two Advil every four hours doesn't help.  I took an extended nap yesterday and still felt like I was hit by a Mack truck.  I think this means that my Fibromyalgia symptoms are back which can be pretty disturbing to my weight loss efforts.  Low energy, extreme fatigue (feels flu-like), restlessness and inability to sleep are some of the symptoms.  The link above suggest that Fibromyalgia sufferers perform mild exercise in short (5 minute) increments to alleviate or control flare-ups.  I'm not sure this will help me shed the pounds though.  Have any of you ever used this method?  I am heading into the gym early today so I can get on the bike and warm up a while before I greet my trainer.  I haven't seen her in about two weeks and I'm in for it.  I feel like SUCH a loser being in this much pain from such little exercise.  I'm not LAZY, I'm just EXHAUSTED.  AND I HATE that.  And this really turns me off to the whole working out thing.  Is it really worth it?

By the way, I didn't feel like this until after my 3rd C-Section...I swear, I'm walking around in a DIFFERENT body!  ANY feedback on this would be appreciated!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Today's damage

Starbucks Soy Latte (4)
1 apple slice, 2 grapes, 1/2 oz of cheddar cheese (1)
1 hard boiled egg (2)
Egg White Veggie Omelet (no cheese) (3)
Fruit (2)
Wheat toast (4)
Greek Salad (2)
Baked, all white meat chicken bites (5)
Glass of wine (2)
Chinese tea (0)
Gluten Free Animal Crackers (2)
Total = 27 Points (I get 25)

No workout today.  My baby had a minor surgery (tubes put in his ears and adenoids taken out). So we were up at 5 a.m. and had breakfast for lunch. I'll be switching to coffee with soy milk instead of the lattes, I realized it's not worth the points.

When we were young

     I recently got into a debate with someone over the fact that I could "control" my environment.  I scoffed as I thought of the lack of control I often feel with my three toddlers who are dependent on me for EVERYTHING.  Even on days I THINK I have a system and we are headed for success, things quickly spiral the other way.  I tried to consider ways that I can retain control-if not with my kids, with myself...so I don't eat my way through child-rearing.  What else can I do in those moments when I doubt myself as a good parent? What feels better than a grilled cheese sandwich or a cookie or some chips?  I dug deep into my history and tried to discover a time/place when food wasn't my refuge from chaos.  I thought about when I was very young and I couldn't cook and I couldn't reach the cookie jar and my mom would have said no if I asked for one.  What did I do in those moments when I felt out of control? How did I resolve my issues and calm myself sans food?

  
I was a big fan of DRAWING and PAINTING and I loved to play with my pastels and create brilliantly colored works of "art".  I had a killer art set and colors made me happy.  I might have to go and get myself a set and in stressful moments draw even a small picture or a postcard that I could send off in the mail to someone I love.  I'm going to set up two easels in my garage so my daughter (who also loves art) and I can go in there and paint when we are frustrated.

  
I loved to READ and WRITE.  I would write EVERYTHING - stories, poems and notes to friends.  I would consult the back of my "Tiger Beat" magazine and write fan letters to my favorite teen idols (Kirk Cameron, John Stamos, Duran Duran-yes I am old!).  Since I am an "Army Brat" we moved every 2 years so I was a VERY dedicated pen-pal.  There was always a friend left behind who I could write a letter to and I LOVED getting mail back, and imagined how my life would have played out if I was still there.  Reading BOOKS enabled me to travel to other places if I wasn't happy with where we were at the time.  Right now I'm reading "The Blind Side" by Michael Lewis and it's kept me OUT of the kitchen.



As a little girl I loved to SING and I loved MUSIC.  I still do.  My sister and I would perform everything from "The Sound of Music" to the "Fame" and "Flashdance" soundtracks, John Denver and of course, Madonna. I might have to spare my kids my voice (thank GOD "American Idol" wasn't around when I was young!) but I can expend my energy on playing songs on my ipod for them or making a "mix" with them.  It is one of my goals to learn piano and the guitar the kids got for Christmas.  That's where my energy should be spent.

     I also loved to be around people and talk to people who loved these very same things.  Those are the ways I used to express myself and still try to.  These things make me happy - I'm going to try to refocus my energy away from the kitchen.  Just because we moms are physically in the kitchen all the time, doesn't mean that's where we need to go for solace.

Think back to your childhood, what, besides food, made you feel better?

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

BLT's

     I went to a Weight Watchers meeting on Monday and sat amongst a room full of people who had lost weight and who were diligent about writing down what they ate. I, on the other hand, thought a lot  about doing it but just couldn't execute. It all seemed too complicated last week.  The people who were successful claimed they wrote down all the BLT's (Bites, Licks and Tastes).  With a house full of kids those BLT's definitely get me into trouble.  So I took the time to write everything down the last two days.  Kind of boring, but here goes.  (Oh, and I get 25 Points)

Tuesday:

Protein Shake with 5 Strawberries 2.5
Starbucks Tall Soy Latte   3
Tofu, Veggies with a soy based sauce   4
Garden Salad with tahini/avocado dressing  2
Iced Tea
Little piece of bread with little bit of butter 1
Waldorf Chicken Salad (WW recipe)   6
Acorn Squash  1
2 Glasses of red wine    4
3 Rice Dream Bites-Vanilla  1
Total:  24.5

Workout:  Did the Shape Magazine iphone app "Ab" workout
Elliptical 5 minutes
Side Punches
Heisman moves
Dumbbell Torso Twists
Speed Skater
Squat Thrusts
Bicycle Crunch
Jog/Run in place 5 minutes
Bike 10 minutes

Wednesday:

Protein shake with 5 strawberries  2.5
Jo-Sef Gluten Free Vanilla Animal Crackers 1.5
Chinese Tea 0
1/2 tsp peanut butter  .5
1/2 tsp jelly  .5
Waldorf Turkey Salad  6
Soy Latte  3
Organic Rigatoni Puttanesca with Veggie Meatballs  ( recipe from Vegetarian Times Mag.) 11
5 Rice Dream Bites-Vanilla   1.5
2 Bottomless glasses of red wine  4
Vegetarian Times (1-year)Total: 30.5  (oops!)

Workout:  30 minutes on the bike at the gym, various stretching and 100 sit-ups

My next weigh-in seems so far away.  This is a lot of work.  Hopefully the week will go by FAST!